Ooh, ooh, ooh, pick me!

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In the year King Uzziah died… In the season when I felt like everything of mine, the most important things to me, what I cared about and all my desires, died, I saw the Lord sitting on His throne He was high and lifted up and His train filled the temple.  I realized how powerful and mighty God was and it wasn’t all about me.  I realized that He wasn’t just on earth and dealing with my problems, He was above all and over all and working details out in my life that I couldn’t see and working details out in my friends and families lives.  He was caring for people all over the world.  I recognized in that moment that He is bigger than everything that involves me and even the entire world.  In fact the Word shows that God is so big, majestic and awesome that even His robe’s train fills the heavenly temple.  Above Him stood the seraphim…and they cried to each other “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord of hosts, the whole earth is full of His glory”.  The foundations shook and the house was filled with smoke.  Then I said “Woe is me, For I am undone and ruined, because I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of people of unclean lips, for my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts.   When I begin to meditate on God and how big He is and how glorious He is, then everything falls into perspective.  I cry “holy, holy, holy are you Lord”, I say “I am a person with unclean lips and I live in a world of people with unclean lips”.  No person can compare to the Holiest of Holy’s.  When I look at His holiness I see how frail and human I am.  Only He is holy.

Then one of the seraphim’s brought a live coal and touched my mouth and said “behold this has touched your lips, your iniquity and guilt are taken away and your sin is completely atoned for and forgiven”.  Lord touch the coal to my lips, my heart, my soul, cleanse me and make me clean.  He says that I am clean by the blood of the Lamb, I am saved already but my lips need to be touched with coal.  But that can’t be good enough, I want my whole body, inside and out, touched with coal and my sin, my flesh, my selfishness burned out.  But the Lord lets me know that sometimes I just need Him to purify my mouth, what goes in and especially what comes out.  What you say flows from what is in your heart (Luke 6:45).  What is in my heart comes out through my mouth, so yes my mouth needs to be touched with a holy coal.  When Jesus washed the disciples feet, Peter said don’t wash my feet.  Jesus said “If I don’t wash you then you can have nothing to do with me”.  Peter said “not just my feet, wash my hands and my head”.   “You have already bathed (you are already saved) you don’t need to be washed, you just need your feet cleaned”.  I agree with you Peter, burn all of me.   But Jesus says no, just your lips.  Ok Lord, touch my lips with your holy coal, clean me daily.

Then God says He has a job and he needs something done. Isaiah says  Send me.  After the death of things thought important, after seeing God for who He really is. After falling on my face and saying I am undone and unclean, God sending His coal to touch my lips and He says you are clean but sometimes what comes out of your mouth isn’t.  I say burn me up with your fire.  God says just your mouth needs to be purified.  After all this the Lord says Who can I send?  By now I am ready and I say like Arnold Horshack from the 70’s sitcom “Welcome Back Kotter” with arm straight up “ooh, ooh, ooh, pick me, I’ll go, let me do it”.  When we see things in the right perspective, God as the most important, we see life in the span of eternity, we see Him as Holy, then we say “I am unclean”.  He doesn’t say “yup, you are right, you are dung” or poop, but He says you are clean just your lips need to be purified.  I love this passage.  God doesn’t say “clean up then I will take care of you”, He doesn’t say “you need to get your act together”.  What He does say is “here let me help you, let me clean and purify your lips”.  See, I always think I have to do better, love better, work harder but He says “let me”.  Nothing wrong with being a hard worker or pushing yourself to be better but when we do it all in our own strength we get exhausted and we think it is all about us.  We end up with headaches, or heart problems or diseases.  I have found when I sit in my quiet place and say “Holy, holy, holy are you God almighty” then I realize that He is not asking me to do it all on my own.  He is saying “let me do this for you, let me love through you, let me cleanse you”.  We as frail humans, try to do everything in our own strength but He doesn’t ask us to, He does it for us if we let go and let Him.  When I put God in His rightful place then I relax and let Him do what He needs to do, in me.  Then I am anxious to go where He leads and do what He wants.  I realize it is not about me.  If I mess up it doesn’t matter, if I do great, in my eyes, it doesn’t matter, because it’s not about me, it all about Him.  I can relax and trust Him if I “do good” or “do bad”.  This is His show.  I don’t need to stress over my accomplishments I need to relish in His.  When I get out of the way, by resting in Him, then I am free to say, Lord send me, let me do what you need.  Lord, let me go, you love people through me.  You oh Lord are holy, I rest in you, do you need something?  “ooh, ooh, ooh, send me!”